LJ comments
Mar. 10th, 2009 01:49 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
adrian_turtleI have been trying to post comments to various journals since early Sunday evening. Long, complicated, thoughtful comments, in response to posts or conversations I care about. I am way too slow and insecure to just clatter out those comments as fast as I can type. I worry that I might be overreacting to a post or comment because I misunderstood it. I worry that I'm not explaining enough of my point and nobody will know what I mean. I worry that I'm explaining over and over again and making a fool of myself. I worry that I'm looking excessively defensive about my fifth finger. Then when the thing is written, I eeyore it to death (taking deflated words out, putting them back in, over and over and over. it's never going to be right. nobody will ever like me.) Then I click the "post comment" button, get an LJ error message, and my comment disappears.
Sometimes you don't hear from me because I'm too depressed to read, or too depressed to comment. Sometimes you don't hear from me because I'm not interested in the subject, or have nothing to say, or because the conversation has become too complicated or contentious for me to get involved. But I actually wrote comments about how the targets of any particular bigotry speak about it differently than their allies. And about Westmark, and failing to see a person's story while looking right at her. And three different places where the comment started with childraising and disability, and worked around to more general problems of parents being isolated under impossible pressures.
Furthermore, it is Tuesday.
Sometimes you don't hear from me because I'm too depressed to read, or too depressed to comment. Sometimes you don't hear from me because I'm not interested in the subject, or have nothing to say, or because the conversation has become too complicated or contentious for me to get involved. But I actually wrote comments about how the targets of any particular bigotry speak about it differently than their allies. And about Westmark, and failing to see a person's story while looking right at her. And three different places where the comment started with childraising and disability, and worked around to more general problems of parents being isolated under impossible pressures.
Furthermore, it is Tuesday.
